Set in Stone

My day started off with such a bang, got up, cleaned a little and headed to the gym to do my workout. I really out did myself with four miles on the treadmill and another hour of floor and weights, I was proud. After the gym I usually run over to have a check on the flowers on Kent grave and try to have a little chat.

I still have not mastered not having the person right there to look at while I’m talking but today brought the whole thing to a new light. They had installed the park bench and it made life way to finial. I know Kent is gone, I was there when it all happened but for some small reason in the back of my every so small mind I still had this kind of hope that it would all get better, it did before. Why do I feel so alone now, I was before. I sat on the bench and cried my eyes out and couldn't figure out why.

I have been waiting for this to be done for months, why did it being set in place make me so alone. After what I thought was a good cry I headed to Wal- Mart the fix of the day and ran into Michelle and the kids and got a call from an old friend at the same time. Those were both great distraction and I was so thankful for them, but on the way home the tears started falling again and all I can think of is “ now I’m really alone”

Well hopefully this pity party will go by fast and I can get on with life. Tomorrow will start my days for education week and I am looking forward to some up lifting talks to listen to. Michelle was going to try to get up her courage and go over and get pictures of the bench to put on the blog so you could all see how it turned out. It truly reminds me of my life with Kent and the joys we had together.