Love Forever

Another change in medications. Kent has been wired for three day now and the only thing that has made him relax is his sleep medication. Carman came today and did her check and wondered if there was something that could be mentally bothering him. I just think he was taught not to give up, and he’s not. We upped all the medication again and are hoping it will give him some relief. I think we are coming close to the end of our battle with cancer. Yesterday Kent was still able to pull himself up in the bed and we were trying to keep him from hurting himself, this morning when I needed to change him he couldn't even help me by rolling over. I have such an empty feeling in my heart and can’t stop crying. Our family unit is starting to break off and move back to our Heavenly Home. We are a strong unit and will overcome but not without a lot of tears and heartbreak. The hole that will be left will be great.
When my brother pass away they did a celebration of his life and I thought it was wonderful, but a comment was made to me and I have heard it many times by many others that my beliefs make things to sad, everyone is crying after the passing. Well the tears that are pouring are tears of love and the best way to express how much we truly love one another. When Kent’s niece was killed several years ago her mother Amy was told she needed to take something to help her cope with her loss, she told the person she didn't need to be numb she needed to feel all of the hurt for the great loss for that is how we show the true love of the one that has passed. (That is as close as I remember what was said) The Bishop came over last night and gave Kent a blessing of comfort and it truly helped him to sleep I just hope and pray that the comfort can remain throughout the week. I have been given a couple of ideas of one to two weeks before his passing but I can’t imagine that his body can take much more. He hasn't had anything to eat for 13 days and the only water he will take is what we pinch off in a straw and that ends up aspirating him. He has put up such a fight, and we thank All Of You for you comments, calls and concerns.